Mid October

Missed it by that much.
(, what you smelled like)
It came and went beneath my
feet in a wisp of crimson leaves and
(mid October)
caramel air.
(Of last year)
Surrounding my bones
and widening eyes in a sweet
and surprising daze.
I suddenly remembered what
your mother’s house smells like
on the first day of autumn
and what your pillow smelled like
when you taught me how to
play video games - In your room -
and what your neck smelled like (before
you got that cologne for christmas)
when we layed together
and fall was like a secret
safer than a pillow fort between
our warm bodies
and mismatched socks.